i]AWAITING[/i]

You notice me across a crowded cafe
I am just another person enjoying my latte
with my latest edition of Dogs Life for company

You on the other hand
Have fluffed about, chosen a trashy gossip magazine
Checked the room twice maybe for a better palce to sit
And ordered your tall non-fat, soy milk, no whip chai latte

It would appear i am multi-tasking
But honestly the magazine is simply a disguise for people watching
I have been here for over an hour

I am waiting for someone and until then
I simply sip away slowly, scan the cafe and occassionally flip a page
I wish this person would get here soon

I order another coffee and settle in for the wait
The volume within the cafe seems to increase
The air is thick with the aroma of brewed coffee
And the once spacious cafe appears to get smaller
I remove my jacket, placing it on the chair beside me

It should come as no suprise that I am waiting for this person
Perhaps I lull myself into believing this time will be different

I don't actually read the magazines I bring for they are a blur to me
M room scanning isn't people watching at all
But a way of stopping myself from overfocusing and feeling faint
And the recognition of you with a smile is truthfully
A grimace of uneasiness that I know all too well

I am here to expose myself
Perhaps you are too?
The person I am waiting for is me
Just a calmer me
Free of fear and anxiety

So until then I slowly sip away